Mavati-Datisa

So it's time for me to update.
I have been so very busy lately, so many things have fallen to the wayside.
I will possibly be making a new account, as Mavati-Datisa is very outdated.
I will be uploading some drawings and paintings and photoes very soon from the art course I've been doing, possibly to my 'new' account.
Anyways...
Stay tuned for more info. <3

So after how many months of inactivity? I reopen my devianart.
I am now doing a diploma of Fine arts at Tafe. So I will be able to put some photoes up soon of some works we've done so far.
I would like to upload stuff right now but alas the lazy monster has ahold of me.
Peace out, I'll be on again in a day or two.
<3

Well... personal growth and introspection is interesting...

Especially when you look at things you have done your whole life and suddenly realise how pointless they are.

And when you look at habits you picked up from ex-boyfriends/girlfriends and realise that that wasn't yours to begin with... Or did I do that before I met them. I dunno...

I have found a lot of anger that hasn't been addressed for years... Might explain the random dreams...

Either way. Things are changing...

But other things aren't.

I'm sick. Chest infection thing. Sucks balls. And not in the good way.

Theatre and Tafe are taking up most of my time, so I can't be artistic. Although I wanna start painting pictures of buddha and stuff from other religions...

But hey. It happens as it happens hey. lol

Have a good one everyone.

Peace and love and light for all.

^-^

For those of you familiar with certain wall tiles in a certain game, then you would have picked up that I have been playing a bit of The Sims 2.

On other news, I am currently at Tafe, going over chords types and watching the Diploma students do their first class of Performance Technique V. I am an Advanced Diploma student, so I'll be doing Performance Tech VI, and it's a bit intimidating. How the hell did I do Performance Tech V??

But in the question and answer stage of the first bit of the class I realised that I do know quite a bit thanks to TAFE. Confidence level up! Matt has learned the new move "Confident Smile"

No I havn't been playing Pokèmon, I've been watching Drawn Together. Love it. Although I am a hard core RPG buff, so that could have influenced my questionably pokèmon-ish statement.

Anyways.

Things are good. Things are fun. Writing some more music, loving my new lyrical style and the fact that I'm picking up the guitar kinda quickly. And amazed at my retention of information. Go the Human Brain! Woot!

Anywhos.

I miss my family, because yes I have moved back to Orange... I live by myself now. It is so... freakin... awesome. But i still miss my sisters and mum and my beautiful Molly Dog and the Cat Brothers Marco and Polo.

Anyhows.

Residual emotions pertaining to my pat are annoying me, and strange dreams are haunting me... Dreams about eople I havn't seen in ages, dreams about peopel I only just met. Dreams about people who would never, ever be in that situation and yet there they are. Dreams about places, past lives and people. It's disorientating having a dream in which I'm smoking and then waking up knowing that I don't smoke, and then seeing someone smoking and thinking "Oh I could go a smoke" and then going "woah!"

See I freed myself from the shackles and chains of nicotine addiction and tobacco industry slavery last year in easter and now I just don't want them. I don't crave them. But when I have a dream like that, it's disorientating.

Dreaming about friends and colleagues and goodbyes and greetings.

Anywhat...

I might get back to class.

I have art ideas and story concepts and game inspirations and I am frustrated because I lack the necessary means to create these things...

Anyone who would be willing to help me do concept art for a few games ideas in the recesses of my mind... Gimme a shout.

Oh and I love being a vegetarian. I realised that my non-violence principles have now expanded to what I consume. It's great. I still get angry of course... But I choose to control it and not express it, I let the emotion be felt, but I channel the energy into my creative force. Read some Mahatma Ghandi. That guy was awesome.

Peace love and light y'all.
Matty D.

Well people, the new year is just around the corner.

Another christmas is over, and as usual, I am reminded of the monetary wealth of others but the richness of my own life with the love and happiness I find in my family. Even though we fight sometimes, I love them so much. ^-^

Some things too look forward to in the new year...

I will be living by myself come the 11th day of the year 2010.
I will be studying my Advanced Diploma in Music Studies.
I will be taking singing and dancing lessons.
I will be in three musicals (hopefully, I've been successful with one audition, now the next two are like four and six months away.)
I will be preparing for an audition with WAAPA in November. *soooo excited!*
I will be exercising regularly and looking pretty. -.^


Basically I am excited about 2010, it looks like a good year.

The last couple of years I've made yearly predictions.
And so far they've been pretty accurate, not exactly so, but they summed up a lot of stuff for a lot of people. I know they are vague, but whats a prediction without that element of 'this can apply to anyone' hey? lol.

Three years ago was the year of change, things got turned upside down for a lot of people. It was a difficult time and people struggled to move on or get out of troubling situations.

Two years ago was the year of consequence, where those people struggled to come to grips with the change and focused on a lot of the negative side effects. There was a light at the end of the tunnel of gloom, but it seemed a long way away.

Last year (2008) was the year of acceptance, where the change was reconciled and the consequences were accepted, opening the way for healing. A stirring under the surface was recognised though, and things that were unseen were brought to the surface to be dealt with. This wasn't that gerat for a lot of people, but it was easily accepted due to the atmosphere of the year.

2009 was another year of change, kind of like sucking up the last little bits of milk shake with your straw. Before anything more could happen, some things that were being ignored had to be dealt with and cleaned up.
I didn't make a prediction this year, but looking back on my own circumstances, I see that there was another stage of upheaval, massively, in the first half of my year, where for others it occured at different times. This upheaval was reconciled quite soon, due to a general feeling of wellbeing, even in the face of trying times. In years to come, some of it's deeper running issues will be brought to the surface, but will be supported by a generally positive environment.

Luckily, 2010 will be a year of reaping the benefits of the last few years. With a lot of the negative focus being removed, we can see a lot more opportunities and advantageous situations for most people, and a lot of that will be (perspectively) only possible because of the last few years of upheaval and change. This year will be perfect for nurturing any past pains, and moving us forward to a happier, healthier and more peaceful state of being.
There will of course be a lot of hurdles, but these will be tackled with smiles and love and a feeling of confidence to those that allow themselves to attune to the state of everything around them. Harness the atmosphere to heal old wounds, ask forgiveness and learn to forgive. Utilize the momentum of the last few years to enter a new lifestyle of healthy living, full of positive thoughts, healthy food and regular exercise.

Don't be concerned with how other people view you, concern yourself only with learning how to view every aspect of yourself positively and with love. Accept who you are, where you come from and choose to live with love for yourself and everything else. This is one way to heal your life and enter a new stage of happiness and wellbeing. Nothing can be done to change the past, and there is no use worrying about the future. The most efficient, and really the only thing you can do, is work to make your present situation on you can be comfortable with, one you can happily accept and move forward, always striving to make the best of the bad and a fruitful future in tomorrow.

We all have done things we aren't particularly proud of, everyone makes mistakes. Whether it be an arguement, a misunderstanding, a less than perfect result or a failed attempt at some enterprise, don't let these mistakes hold you back from trying again, or trying something new.
Forgive yourself, forgive any one else if need be, and enter a new stage of your life where you can really live!
Allow yourself the freedom to try again.
Forgiving doesn't mean "What you did to me is okay" it means "I am no longer going to let what you did to me control the way I feel". And this means yourself as well.
Don't be so hard on yourself, let yourself be human. That is what it means to be human. No one is perfect, and to get close to perfection takes a lot of work. Even those people who are naturally good at something have to work hard to make it 'perfect'.

Take back your life, and live it to it's fullest. Enjoy watching things fall into their place and practise gratitude for everything in your life. Even those trying times and the things that were sent to test our fortitude, every arguement, every set back, they are all things you can be grateful for, simply because they are an experience that you can grow from.
Be thankful you are alive, even though it has been difficult. And let's face it, it's no easy feat to survive, even though a lot of us have as much as we need, we still find things that are dfifficult. But the secret is to be happy for the things you have.
Appreciate your life, because some people aren't so lucky.

All my love for all the earth and everything on it.
Peace and happiness to all.
Matty D.